Sunshine

I'm having an off week.

I'm all anxious and sad and flustered.

There is alot going on right now, especially at work, and I'm very stressed and overwhelmed and full of conflicting emotions.

I've been meaning to come blog but everytime I sit down to write, I feel like I am going to word-vomit on you people and you'll walk away feeling depressed.

I am full of joy and sunshine today, as you can tell.

I don't like to bring my sad stuff to the blog. I'd like to think that you people come here to get happy.... I'm pretty sure no one wants to come read a whole blog post of whining and complaining.

Things are just in an unsettled place right now.

And I really hate feeling unsettled.

Last night I spent a considerable amount of time laying on the couch under my mega-comfy brown blanket while watching "One Born Every Minute" on Lifetime. (Watching shows on Lifetime for hours on end is a good indication that Jen the Newlywed is STRESSED THE HECK OUT)

On a side note, sometimes watching "One Born Every Minute" makes me want to have a baby soon and sometimes it makes me want to have a baby NEVER. I've learned somethings about childbirth that I never knew before and let's just say that I'm known to holler out "WHAT IN SAM HILL IS GOING ON?!? Oh, HECK NO!" while watching the show.

Back to my point: I am melancholy and listening to Enya.

On a positive note, all these frowny feelings have brought me to my knees this week and I have had some wonderful time in prayer. God hasn't really given me any guidance/answers yet... but one thing He has made very clear to me is that I need to continue to involve Him in these decisions and emotions that I'm feeling.... Prayers are appreciated :)