Things have been going really well lately. Do you ever have one of those days when you realize that you really don't have much to complain about? (By the way, thank you all for your kind words of sympathy and encouragement while I was grieving the loss of my make up. You got me through a tough time, and, I know this is hard to believe, but I sometimes forget it happened. Isn't it crazy how you can just bounce back like that?).
My house is spotless right now. My closet is clean and organized. I've cooked dinner the last two nights and it has turned out quite delicious. The dishes are washed and put away. I've spent time in the Word everyday. I have been getting to bed at a decent hour. I'm in the middle of a good book. Sunday we started going to a new Sunday school class that seems like a great fit for us. I am fully prepared for all of the things on my to-do list this week. This weekend we are going to New Orleans for a long over-due visit to see Grant's family and I am so excited. Things are going well.
And ya know what? That whole paragraph that I just typed up there..... it is because of all of those things that I KNOW there is a God. Believe it or not, I wasn't trying to be funny when I just said that. I mean it.
It is because of God that I am capable of doing anything. I can't do anything on my own. I am unmotivated, lethargic, and a procrastinator. But because of His grace, He gives me the fuel to keep going. It would be really easy for me to look around my house and see everything clean and in its place and credit it to myself. I could say, "Wow, look what I did. I'm pretty good". But that is so not the case. I know that anything good that I do comes from Him.
That is how I know He is there. That is how I know He is with me. When I find myself doing a kind deed for someone, I choose to see the truth in the action. The truth is not "I'm such a nice person". The truth is, "Jesus, thank You for showing me that there is someone with a need. I am Your vessel and You can use me to love others". All glory goes to HIM. He is the giver. NOT ME.
He has given me a joyful heart. He has given me motivation and endurance. He has given me rest and peace.
Thank You, Jesus.